Pickups and Bubbles: An Elusive Measure

Let’s see.  Twenty-three participants, eleven translators (four were leaving on that day, so there were four extra in the morning), two brigade coordinators, and two drivers, I think that is thirty eight.  Okay so maybe it was thirty-seven or thirty nine, I didn’t actually count.  The Virginia Commonwealth University / Fairfax Family Practice Center Brigade at Pinares, San Marcos de la Sierra, set out that Tuesday morning for two smaller communities: Cedros and Las Marias.  So everyone packed into two pickup trucks.  For the sake of argument, let’s just say nineteen in each pickup.  Okay, so each pickup did have an extended cab.  They probably squished seven into each cab.  That meant that each pickup bed held about twelve persons, plus medications, supplies, and everybody’s lunch.
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We followed behind them in our comfortable Toyota Land Cruiser.  Comfortable perhaps, only by comparison, because we were six persons and a ton of gear.  Shoulder to Shoulder had contracted with Aeden O’Connor, a twenty year old cinematography student from Tegucigalpa studying in Prague, to produce some video documentaries on our mission.  They were a crew of four with Laura and I along as guides.  We watched the pickups travel slowly in front of us, a partially comical, partially surreal scene.  They traveled slowly, for safety as much as necessity, and we wondered about the incredible strain on those vehicles so weighted down.  We traveled about two miles north, back toward La Esperanza, on the half gravel, half paved “highway,” before taking a left on the access road toward the two smaller communities.  The one lane rock and gravel path twisted, rose, and fell along mountainous terrain.  The road, literally carved out of the mountain ledge, meant a wall of rock to the right, and, to the left, the sheer two, three, or four hundred foot drop to the base of the mountain.  We actually never got that far away from the main highway, it always remaining in sight less than a mile to the east.  But, the rugged terrain and weighted vehicles could all but inch and crawl toward our destination.  One truck continued straight on as we followed the other to the left and the community of Cedros.  But we never really saw any community per se, a single house here and there along the road.  Most of the inhabitants don’t live along the road, nor do they live in any community.  Their houses are scattered and hidden under the pines, no electric lines running overhead, accessible by foot paths descending and ascending from the road.  The entirety of the drive is a short distance, no more than four miles, but it takes about thirty minutes.  We arrive at the end of the road at a school, sitting above a huge soccer field.
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Down to the left of the school is a small church, and just beyond the soccer field, accessible by a footpath, a house.  But there is nothing else here.  We’re in the middle of a forest.  Still, the children are  waiting for us, forty or fifty of them.  Where did they come from and how did they get here?  VCU / FFPC is here for the CHI (Children’s Health Initiative) program.  They will take heights and weights, check blood for anemia, check their eyesight, apply varnish to their teeth, and give a few other tests.  They set up something of an assembly line to do this efficiently.  But the kids are already involving themselves with the fair-skinned, English-speaking guests.  Some are playing soccer and others are circling about Aeden, his film crew, and the camera.  Two young women from the brigade take out bubble bottles and start blowing bubbles into the air.  The kids gather around them, clapping at them and jumping up to try to catch them in their hands.  A few of them attempt to blow the bubbles themselves, but they haven’t mastered the art.  Most of them have probably never seen soap bubbles.  Unless they were fortunate enough to go to a town fiesta in San Marcos, there would be no opportunity to buy them.  Even so, very few of their families could afford such a luxury item.  The kids are bright-eyed, joyous.  Their laughter and their smiles, so inviting and uninhibited, transform this humble school yard into a magical fantasy world.  The adults are smiling too, unconsciously, almost as if they are dreaming.  I am happy to think that Aeden is getting it all on video.
Some will cynically question the worth of a brigade.  Twenty three Americans from the medical and academic world, many of whom don’t speak any Spanish, all coming from a world far removed from the realities of Cedros, visit for two weeks.  Will they have any lasting effect?  Will they have any real impact on the enduring poverty?  I suppose if the assessment of the value of such a trip is only to be judged by empirical metrics, the cynics will be justified.  But bubbles, laughter, and smiles defy empirical measurement.  The good that is achieved, both for the Hondurans as well as the brigade participants, is not a value of the head, but one of the heart.
cedros littlegirl The small encounters will be remembered.  Enrichment, empowerment, development, and meaningful growth are not so much a measure of what is given or taken, but rather found in the elusiveness of what is shared.  VCU / FFPC came with two physical therapy doctoral students.  Though I may be mistaken, and my apologies if I am, I cannot recall physical therapy being part of any other brigade.  With the severity of muscular-skeletal, chronic conditions resulting from accidents and the abiding conditions of exhaustive, physical labor, how important is this discipline here in the Frontera.  The two therapists saw an incredible amount of patients and offered them solutions and relief that they would not otherwise have discovered.  Both of them related the story of one man.  As they told the story, their faces beamed as they choked back tears.  The man had suffered a stroke and was partially paralyzed.  He walked only with great difficulty and effort.  They created for him a sling to secure under his foot.  With his arms he could hoist his lifeless leg and swing it forward.  They practiced with him and soon the man had mastered the maneuver.  His life had completely changed by this simple gift of their knowledge.  He would no longer be confined and dependent.  He would no longer feel himself a burden to his friends and family.  He could walk under his own power.  What a gift!

Cedros group

So light these bubbles in the air that drift above and beyond us, so seemingly insignificant.  Yet it is this lightness that holds a world of magic, the wonder and mystery of all that is discovered in sharing.

A Complicated Jigsaw

ME-NY groupThe most recent brigade team at Colomoncagua was certainly cause for great anxiety.  It was our inaugural brigade for our new Honduran Brigade Team.  Half of the team, Laura and Paul, were in the States for a brief vacation.  The brigade itself was completely new to Shoulder to Shoulder, never having visited Honduras as a group in the past.  Shoulder to Shoulder has never hosted a brigade in Colomoncagua, this municipality only added to our health care coverage area two months ago.  Beyond all this, the brigade members themselves did not comprise a unified group.  They consisted of the Maine-Dartmouth Family Medicine Residency, the pharmacy team from Long Island University, a mother daughter mental health team from California, and a nursing student from Bethel College in Indiana.  All competent, well-qualified professionals, ready to serve, but unknown to one another in this unfamiliar environment, each must have felt a certain insecurity of how this experiment would turn out.  At dinner at the first night, they sat silent, staring at the exotic food on their plates, perhaps escaping deeper into their own heads, focusing on the familiarity of their disciplines, but wondering how they would relate one to another, how would they come together.  They were anxious and we were anxious.  It seemed someone had dumped the contents of three different jigsaw puzzles on to the table and given us the task of putting all the pieces together into a cohesive whole.
ME-NY meds
But the first day of our actual clinic work seemed to change this reality, the heavy cloud of anxiety rose and the brightness of common goals of human service and dignity filled the air.  A hundred persons waited to be seen at the clinic on that first day.  Everyone rushed into action.  The nursing crew set up their stations to take vitals.  The physicians began seeing the patients, forming opinions, making consultations, and prescribing treatments.  The pharmacists set up their medications, and read and filled the prescriptions of the doctors.  The professionals assumed their roles with great ease and skill, they appreciated and respected their relationships one with another and the patients, and quality care and compassionate service flowed effortlessly.
By the last clinic day, with over 500 patient visits completed, the dinner table was no longer silent, but laughter, story, and the familiar banter among friends filled the room.  A week ago, these people were strangers in a strange land being lead by other strangers to serve the needs of yet others unknown to them.  Now they were all colleagues, sharing in common respect for their professional roles.  Some of them had even found friendship among one another and among the Hondurans they came to serve.  Compassion and service are universal ideals that quickly overcome our insecurities.

ME-NY dancing

It certainly seemed that these puzzle pieces didn’t fit:  too many pieces, too many diverse sizes and shapes; too many colors that didn’t blend.  But somehow during the course of the week, the pieces found connection.  Such a beautiful scene emerged – a harmony of service, commitment, and respect to produce a profound hope for health, well-being, and empowerment.

Doing Good

April 9, 2015
The University of Wyoming saw over 300 persons at their clinic in Agua Salada last week.  Being Holy Week we had some concern that they might not have as many patients as they would on a normal week.  But, Wyoming’s clinic is well established with developed relationships of trust.  Regardless of the week, the people turn out.  Laura and I visit them twice, but because they are so busy, we have little time to engage with the brigade members.  Mostly we just observed the coming and goings of the residents and their interactions with the students, nurses, dentist, and doctors.
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We recognized an older woman who had also come to the clinic when Wyoming was last here in November.  She would be memorable to almost anyone; that soft, grandmotherly look and manner that inspires you to want to care for her.  She’s trying on reading glasses.  She had done the same thing at the last brigade and I recalled that she didn’t have a need for reading glasses.  Perhaps her memory is a little challenged.  This time as before, two or three brigade members come to assist her.  I inform them that she doesn’t need reading glasses.  They ask her if she has difficulty reading and she answers that she doesn’t read.  “What about sewing?  Can you see the material and the thread?”  “Yes,” she responds, “I can sew just fine.”  She’s disappointed when they explain to her, as they had at the last brigade, that wearing reading glasses for her poor distance sight would not help her, and might even hurt her.  Still, she and the brigade members are having a great time, laughing and conversing.  Solicitous of her, the brigade members search out ways to help her.  I think that they already had.
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Laura spoke with one of the brigade members, thanking him for all the good work Wyoming is doing.  He asked, sincerely, if in fact they really are doing any good.  It’s a jarring question.  A lot of brigades either never ask it, or answer it quickly and affirmatively to avoid their personal insecurity.  But the question is the beginning of discernment, the beginning of mission.  Everyone wants to feel helpful.  It’s another thing entirely to actually be helpful.  The former is about ego.  The latter is about commitment.  The question itself provides the map outlining the journey from ego to commitment.
On our second visit there was a meeting with the community leaders.  The clinic has never been part of the Honduran health system and therefore has only been open when the University of Wyoming is present on brigade.  The situation has changed now and there is a possibility for the clinic to be operational on a daily basis.  This would mean regular health care for the inhabitants of Agua Salada and the surrounding areas.  The community leaders expressed gratitude and praise for the committed individuals who have been coming to their village for years.  They even spoke about memorializing them by hanging their photos on the walls.  Then the community leaders expressed the fear they were feeling.  If the clinic becomes part of the Honduran medical system would that mean that Wyoming would stop coming?  Wyoming answered the question definitively.  No, they would continue to come.  They would continue to provide health care.  They would stand by the side of the community as they developed.  This response eased the fears of all present.
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Is the University of Wyoming doing any good for the community and individuals of Agua Salada?  Well, they built a clinic here.  They’ve provided health care for years.  The community is now poised to obtain regular, ongoing health care.  They are known and respected by the residents.  The community wants them to continue coming.  Wyoming is committed to standing by their side.  But even with all of that, the question is a scary one to ask, and even more elusive to answer.  Though it is so tempting to document proof of our generosity, “good” is not subject to empirical measurement.  It is only and always a thing of the heart.
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When Wyoming next returns to Agua Salada, I suspect we’ll see the older woman return again.  She will again search the reading glasses, again be dismayed that the glasses will not help her, and again find comfort in gathering around her two or three young Americans.  They’ll talk and laugh and gently lead her about, searching out ways that they might help her.  Once again, the question will be asked.  Once again, the answer will elude us.  The question, however, is so much more important than the answer.